Maopopo iā ʻoe ke aloha? ʻIke ʻoe i ke kūʻokoʻa? Makemake ʻoe i kekahi, i kekahi, ma ka loaʻa ʻana o ka wehewehe pololei o kēlā me kēia? Manaʻo wau ua ʻike wau i nā mea āpau e pili ana i nā mea āpau. ʻAʻole au i ʻike i kekahi mea. ʻAʻole pilikia, ʻaʻole manawa, ʻaʻole kūʻokoʻa maoli. ʻO ke ola o koʻu makuahine i aʻo mai iaʻu i kēlā.
Ua male au iā Nicolas, ʻeono mau keiki maikaʻi. A i kekahi lā ua hala mākou i kekahi mea. Ua nīnau mākou iā mākou iho i ka nīnau o ke keiki hou, ʻo ka hiku: a no ke aha? ʻAʻole hikiwawe, hiki mai ka manaʻo e hāpai. Pēlā i ka makahiki 2013, hoʻokipa mākou iā Marie. He keiki ʻo Marie me ka maʻi maʻi Down a mākou i koho ai e hoʻokipa ʻoiai nā ʻōlelo aʻo, nā ʻaoʻao ʻaoʻao… ʻAe, momona mākou, no laila he aha ke kumu o ka lawe ʻana? Ua nānā ʻia mākou me he pupule lā. He keiki kīnā pū kekahi! Ua hakakā ikaika mākou i kahi lā e loaʻa ai ke kuleana e hoʻokipa i kā mākou liʻiliʻi ʻo Marie. Mai koho pono i ka maʻalahi e holo mau nā mea a pau e like me ka mea maʻamau, a me ka hōʻoluʻolu nui o ke ola o kēlā me kēia lā me ka ʻole o nā haʻalulu maoli. Ua ʻike au ʻaʻole ʻo ka makemake mau ka mea e kuhikuhi ai i ko mākou ola, a he mea nui ke koho. ʻAʻole anei he mea maʻalahi ke hele wale ma ke ala? ʻO ka hili ʻana, i kekahi manawa, ʻo ia ke ala maikaʻi loa e hele pololei ai.
Ua ʻae nā kānaka a pau, a i nā manawa he nui, ua hoʻohiki ʻia mākou i ka nalowale o ke koena o ko mākou ʻohana nani ma muli o ke alo o kahi keiki ʻokoʻa. Akā ʻokoʻa me wai? Ua lawa ka ? Loaʻa iā Marie ka encephalogram hoʻokahi, inā paha ʻo ia e hiamoe ana a ala paha: ua wānana pū ka pōleʻa kilika lapaʻau i ka holomua liʻiliʻi nona, inā he… I kēia lā, he 4 mau makahiki ʻo Marie. ʻIke ʻo ia i ka "roronette", kahi huaʻōlelo āna e hoʻohana ai me ka ʻoliʻoli e kuhikuhi i kāna scooter. Paheʻe ʻo ia, neʻe ʻo ia i mua. Ua hoʻoikaika nui ʻo ia iā mākou e neʻe i mua… hoʻāʻo i kēlā me kēia mea hou i hoʻokahi tausani manawa ʻoi aku ka ikaika ma mua o mākou. ʻO ka ʻike ʻana iā ia e ʻono i kāna kīʻaha kōpaʻa mua loa. Nui ka hauʻoli me ia! Ua ʻike ʻo ia i ka hoʻokumu ʻana i ka pilina me kēlā me kēia lālā o ka ʻohana. A e hōʻike mai iā mākou a pau ʻaʻole ka ʻokoʻa ka mea a mākou e noʻonoʻo ai. He mea maʻalahi ka ʻokoʻa ma waena o mākou a me Marie. ʻO ke ola ʻaʻole ia e noho ma luna o nā mea i hoʻokō ʻia a ma luna o kāna mau mea paʻa. ʻO ke aloha ʻoiaʻiʻo, ʻo ia ka mea nāna e ʻike i ka ʻoiaʻiʻo o kekahi, a ʻo ia ka mea i loaʻa iā mākou me ia, a me nā poʻe āpau me kahi hemahema nui a liʻiliʻi paha a mākou i ʻike ai ma hope. I kekahi lā, huhū ʻo Marie a ʻike wau i kāna kamaʻilio ʻana i kahi mea ʻike ʻole. Hele akula au a hoʻomaopopo aku ʻo ia e ʻāhewa ana i ka lele i pae i kāna ʻai. Ua haʻi ʻo ia i nā mea a pau i loko o kona puʻuwai i kēia lele e paʻi ana i kāna pā. ʻO kāna maka hou, hou a nani i nā mea, ʻoiaʻiʻo nō hoʻi, ua wehe i koʻu mau manaʻo, koʻu mau manaʻo, i ka palena ʻole. Maoli wale ! Penei mākou, pono mākou e hana pēlā… ʻAʻole. Hana nā mea ʻē aʻe, a ʻaʻohe mea maʻamau. ʻAʻole kilokilo ke ola, aʻo ia. ʻAe, hiki iā mākou ke kamaʻilio me ka lele!
Ma muli o kēia ʻike maikaʻi, ua hoʻoholo māua ʻo Nico e hānai i kekahi keiki ʻē aʻe a pēlā i hiki mai ai ʻo Marie-Garance. Moʻolelo like. Ua hōʻole ʻia nō hoʻi mākou. ʻO kekahi keiki kīnā ʻole! Ma hope o ʻelua makahiki, ua loaʻa iā mākou kahi kuʻikahi a lele kā mākou mau keiki i ka hauʻoli. Ua wehewehe mākou iā lākou ʻaʻole ʻai ʻo Marie-Garance e like me mākou, akā ma o ka gastrostomy: he kiwi kāna i loko o ka ʻōpū, kahi i hoʻopili ʻia ai kahi paipu liʻiliʻi i ka wā ʻai. He palupalu loa kona olakino, ʻike mākou, akā, i ko mākou hālāwai ʻana me ia no ka manawa mua, ua pā mākou i kona nani. ʻAʻohe moʻolelo olakino i haʻi mai iā mākou a hiki i kēlā manawa, kona mau hiʻohiʻona, kona helehelena uʻi.
ʻO kāna huakaʻi mua, ua hana au he alo a he alo me ia, a i koʻu ʻike ʻana iaʻu e hoʻokuke ana i kāna stroller ma ke ala lepo, ua paʻa koke ʻia e kahi kaula kaumaha loa, ua manaʻo wau ua paʻa iaʻu ka hopohopo a me ka makemake e haʻalele i nā mea āpau. E ʻike anei au i ka mālama ʻana i kēia pilikia kaumaha i kēlā me kēia lā? Me ka hopohopo, noho au i ka inert, e nānā ana i nā bipi e ʻai ana ma ke kula kokoke. A ʻaʻole koke wau i nānā i kaʻu kaikamahine. Manaʻolana wau e loaʻa i kāna mau maka ka ikaika e hoʻomau ai, akā ua paʻa loa kona mau maka a ʻike wau ʻaʻole wau i ka hopena o koʻu mau pilikia. Hele hou au i ke alanui, he alanui puʻupuʻu i ʻōpuʻu ai ka stroller, a i laila, i ka hopena, ua pohā ʻo Marie-Garance i ka ʻakaʻaka! A uē au ! ʻAe, ʻaʻole kūpono ka hoʻomaka ʻana i kēlā ʻano hoʻohiwahiwa, akā ʻo ke aloha kūpono he mea ʻole. A ua ʻae wau e ʻae iaʻu e alakaʻi ʻia e Marie-Garance. ʻAe, paʻakikī ka mālama ʻana i kahi keiki ʻokoʻa e pono ai ka mālama olakino kūikawā, akā mai ia lā mai, ʻaʻole i hoʻopiha hou ka kānalua iaʻu.
ʻAʻole kā mākou mau kaikamahine hope ʻelua, akā ʻo nā mea i hoʻololi maoli i ko mākou ola. Ma ka ʻoiaʻiʻo, ua ʻae ʻo Marie iā mākou e hoʻomaopopo he ʻokoʻa kēlā me kēia mea a loaʻa i kāna mau ʻano. He palupalu loa ʻo Marie-Garance ma ke kino a he liʻiliʻi kona mana kūʻokoʻa. Ua ʻike nō hoʻi mākou ua pau kona manawa, no laila ua hoʻomaopopo ʻo ia iā mākou i ka palena o ke ola. Mahalo iā ia, aʻo mākou e ʻono i kēlā me kēia lā. ʻAʻole mākou makaʻu i ka hopena, akā i ke kūkulu ʻana i kēia manawa: ʻo ka manawa ke aloha, koke.
ʻO ka pilikia kekahi ala e ʻike ai i ke aloha. ʻO kēia ʻike ko mākou ola, a pono mākou e ʻae e ola ikaika. Eia kekahi, ʻaʻole koke, e hoʻokipa wau me Nicolas i kahi keiki hou e hoʻohiwahiwa iā mākou.