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Ua lōʻihi wau me koʻu hoa pili, aloha mākou i kekahi i kekahi a makemake nui wau e loaʻa nā keiki. ʻAʻole ʻo ia i hoʻoikaika ʻia, akā ua ʻae ʻo ia ma ke kumu. Ma hope o ʻelua makahiki, ʻaʻohe mea! Ua hopohopo au, ʻike wau he mea ʻē, haʻi mai koʻu hoa iaʻu e hiki mai nā mea a pau i kona manawa a hiki mākou i laila. ʻO ia, ʻaʻole ʻo ia e hoʻoikaika i ka hopena. Nui koʻu hopohopo, a makemake wau e hoʻonāukiuki i nā hanana. Ua hele au e ʻike i ke kauka wahine e ʻike i ka mea e hana nei. Ua hōʻike ʻia nā hoʻokolohua lapaʻau i kahi helu ʻole o ka hormonal, akā ʻaʻole koʻikoʻi. Hiki ia'u ke loaa keiki. ʻAʻole koke, ua noi au i koʻu hoa e nānā inā holo pono nā mea a pau ma kona hopena. Ua lōʻihi loa ʻo ia e hana i kahi spermogram, ua hana ʻo ia me he mea lā ua manaʻo ʻo ia he pilikia kona a makaʻu i ka ʻike. Ua hoʻopaneʻe au iā ia no ʻeono mahina i kēlā me kēia pō, ua huhū loa wau a ua hāʻule kā māua pilina. Ua pau ʻo ia i ka hele ʻana a ua ʻike ʻia ua loaʻa ʻo ia i ka azoospermia, he 29 ona mau makahiki, ʻaʻohe sperm i loko o kāna hua.
Ua ʻike lākou i kahi maʻi maʻi i loko o kaʻu kāne!
Ua hoʻoholo wau e hele e ʻike i kahi loea sterility me ia. Ua makemake māua ʻelua e ʻimi i ka hopena e loaʻa ai kahi keiki. Ua hoʻāʻo hou ʻia au, ʻaʻole paʻa koʻu mau paipu, ua maikaʻi koʻu ʻōpū, a maikaʻi loa koʻu mālama ʻana i ka ovarian. Ma ka ʻaoʻao ʻē aʻe, ʻo nā hoʻokolohua hou i hana ʻia ma luna o koʻu hoa i hōʻike ʻia i kahi maʻi maʻi i loko o ka testicles. Hiki ke mālama maikaʻi ʻia kēia maʻi, ʻaʻole ʻo ia i pilikia i kona ola, he hōʻoluʻolu. Akā, ua hoʻopūʻiwa kēia lono maikaʻi iaʻu. Ke hele nei au i 30 a ua hāʻule koʻu honua! ʻO ka makuahine he nīnau iaʻu no ke ola a me ka make, ʻo ka loaʻa ʻole o nā keiki ke hala kou ola, ʻaʻohe manaʻo koʻu inā ʻaʻole wau i lilo i makuahine. ʻO ka mea lapaʻau nāna i wehe i ka maʻi maʻi o koʻu hoa, ua loaʻa iā 3 sperm i ka wā o ka hana. He mea liʻiliʻi loa ka hana IVF me ICSI (hoʻokomo ʻia kahi sperm i loko o ka hua manu), akā lawe mākou i ko mākou manawa. ʻAʻole au i manaʻoʻiʻo. Ua hana mākou i ʻelua hoʻāʻo kūleʻa. Ua ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi o kā mākou kāne male. A ua pupule wau, hiki ʻole ke ola me ke keiki ʻole, ua nīnau ʻia nā mea āpau, ua kaʻawale mākou no hoʻokahi makahiki. He ino, kanu au i ko'u hoa me kona ma'i ma'i, aka, ua oi loa ko'u manao i ke keiki, poina ia'u. Ua hālāwai ʻo ia me kekahi mea ʻē aʻe, ua loaʻa hou ka hilinaʻi i kona ʻano kāne, a ʻike koke wau he hiki ʻole ke ola me ia! Ua maopopo iaʻu ua makemake au i "ʻAʻohe keiki me ia", ma mua o "ke keiki me ia ʻole". Ua ʻoki ʻo ia i nā pilina a pau me aʻu. Hoʻokahi manawa i ka mahina, hāʻawi wau i kaʻu nūhou ma kāna mīkini pane. Ma hope o hoʻokahi makahiki, kāhea mai ʻo ia iaʻu a haʻi aku wau iā ia e aloha mau ana au iā ia, ke kali nei au iā ia, ua mākaukau wau e ʻae i ka loaʻa ʻole o nā keiki e noho hou me ia. Ua loaʻa iā mākou kekahi i kekahi a ua ʻoi aku ka ikaika o kā mākou mau kāne i waho o kēia kaʻawale.
Ua hōʻike ka ultrasound 12 wiki i kahi pilikia
No ka mea ʻaʻole maʻemaʻe kaʻu hoa, ʻo ka hoʻonā ʻana a i ʻole IAD (insemination me ka mea hāʻawi inoa ʻole). ʻO ia no ka IAD. Ke kaʻa nei au. Ua lawe au i ʻelua makahiki o ka psychotherapy no ka ʻae ʻana i kēia ʻano hana hoʻohua i kōkua ʻia. ʻO ka inoa ʻole ka mea i hopohopo iaʻu, ʻaʻole ʻike i ke kumu o kēia hāʻawi. Ua hauʻoli wau i nā noʻonoʻo maikaʻi ʻole, he psychopath paha ka mea hāʻawi i hāʻule i loko o nā māwae? Ma waho aʻe, manaʻo koʻu mau mākua he manaʻo maikaʻi ʻole ia. I kēlā manawa, hālāwai mākou me kekahi mau hoaaloha i hāpai i kā lākou mau keiki e IAD. Ua kamaʻilio nui mākou, ua kōkua lākou iā mākou e hoʻomaka.
He lōʻihi loa ke kaʻina hana, hele mākou i CECOS (Center for Studies and Conservation of Eggs and Sperm), ke hoʻomau nei mākou i nā hoʻokolohua, hui mākou i nā kauka, kahi shrink, e ʻike inā maopopo mākou i ke ʻano o kēia ʻenehana a me ke ʻano o ka manaʻo. noho makua. Ke hoʻoholo ʻia mākou he "kūpono", koho lākou i kahi mea hāʻawi i loaʻa kahi phenotype kokoke i ke kāne - kala maka, kala ʻili, morphology… ʻAʻole nui nā mea hāʻawi, ʻo ka manawa kali he 18 mahina. I kēlā manawa, ua piha koʻu mau makahiki he 32 a ʻike wau e lilo wau i makuahine ma 35! ʻOiai hiki iā mākou ke hōʻemi i ka manawa inā hāʻawi mākou i kahi mea hāʻawi iā CECOS, ua ʻae kekahi hoaaloha o koʻu hoa e hāʻawi i kahi hāʻawi inoa ʻole no nā ʻohana ʻē aʻe. Ua hoʻopā ko mākou kūlana iā ia, he hana manuahi, ʻaʻole hiki iā mākou ke hoʻomaikaʻi iā ia! E like me koʻu hoa aloha i kākoʻo mau iā mākou i kā mākou hakakā. Ma hope o 12 mahina, ua loaʻa iaʻu ʻelua hoʻohua. Akā, ʻaʻole i holo kēlā. A laila ʻelua mau IVF i hana ʻole. Ua ʻike au i kahi emi, loea i ka sterility, a ua maopopo iaʻu ua mau nō koʻu hopohopo e pili ana i ka mea hāʻawi. I ka hopena, ua hana ka 5th insemination, ua hapai au! Ua euphoric mākou. Akā, ua hōʻike ka ultrasound 12 wiki i ka nuchal translucency o 6mm, a ua hōʻoia nā kauka iā mākou he maʻi puʻuwai koʻikoʻi kā kā mākou pēpē. Ma hope o nā kūkākūkā me ka hui lapaʻau, ua hoʻoholo mākou ʻaʻole e mālama iā ia. Ua hānau au ma ka 16 wiki o ka hāpai ʻana, ua hoʻomaʻamaʻa ʻia au, ua ʻike wau e like me ka robot. He kaikamahine, ʻaʻole au makemake e ʻike iā ia, akā he inoa mua kona a ua kākau ʻia i loko o kā mākou puke moʻolelo ʻohana. Ma hope o kēia hanana, ua hōʻole au i ka mea i hana ʻia. He mea paʻakikī ia no kaʻu hoa pili, he kaumaha kona. No laila ua hoʻoholo mākou e mare, e hana i kahi pāʻina nui me ko mākou mau hoaaloha a me koʻu ʻohana e lanakila ai i ko mākou kaumaha. Ua hoʻonohonoho koʻu kaikuahine i kaʻu male, maikaʻi. Hoʻomaka hou au i ka hoʻomake ʻana, ua loaʻa iaʻu ka hāʻawi lua, a me ʻeono mau hoʻomake ʻana. I ka lima o ka lā, hāpai au. ʻAʻole wau i euphoric loa. He liʻiliʻi koʻu koko a maopopo iaʻu e nalowale ana kaʻu pēpē. Ma ka pule 2 o ka ultrasound au e uwe ana. Akā ua maikaʻi nā mea a pau, maʻamau kaʻu pēpē. He hapai koʻikoʻi koʻu, ʻaʻohe pilikia, akā ua kaumaha loa wau ua hoʻomaka wau i nā hives nunui, ua hauʻoli wau i ka toxoplasmosis a me nā pōpoki, ʻai wale wau iā Babybel!
He pēpē maikaʻi, akā nani!
A ma ʻAukake 23, 2012, ua hānau au iā ʻAʻarona, he pēpē uʻi, akā nani! Aia māua me kaʻu kāne ma ke ao ʻeiwa, ʻaʻohe o māua mihi no ka mea, he nani ka hānau ʻana o kā māua keiki. Ua hana au i kahi pēpē pēpē liʻiliʻi ma ka hale hānai, noho kaʻu kāne me aʻu i nā manawa āpau. He paʻakikī ka hoʻi ʻana i ka home, hopohopo au no ka maʻi maʻi o ka pēpē koke. ʻO kaʻu kāne, ʻokoʻa mau, hōʻoluʻolu iaʻu, ua lawe. He makua kāne kupaianaha ʻo ia. Ua hooki ʻo ia i kāna hana e mālama iā ʻAʻarona. He mea kānalua ia nona ke ala e uku ai no ka loaʻa ʻole o kāna keiki i kāna mau genes. Pono ʻo ia e noho ma laila e hoʻokumu i kahi pilina ikaika loa. I hoʻokahi makahiki ma hope mai, loaʻa ka lua o kā māua keikikāne ʻo Enio. He mea hōʻoluʻolu ko lāua mau keikikāne ʻelua, hele maikaʻi loa me kā mākou kaikamahine. Na kaʻu kāne e mālama iā lākou i kēlā me kēia lā. Ua hoʻohiki ʻo ʻAʻarona i kona makuakāne a hiki i kona 2 makahiki, a no Enio, ua like ia. Ua ʻike kaʻu kāne he mea koʻikoʻi kaʻu ʻoihana iaʻu, mahalo ʻo ia iaʻu no ka haʻalele ʻole ʻana i ka hihia, no ka kali ʻana iā ia, no ka hoʻoikaika ʻana e hiki ke hoʻomaka i kahi ʻohana, ʻaʻohe mea. ʻIke pū ʻo ia e hōʻoiaʻiʻo iaʻu e mālama ʻo ia iā lākou. He hui mākou, hauʻoli nui mākou e like me ia! ʻO koʻu minamina wale nō ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke hāʻawi i kaʻu mau hua no ka mea ua ʻoi aku koʻu mau makahiki he 38. Nui koʻu makemake e hāʻawi aku i kahi wahine i ka mea a ka mea hāʻawi i hana ai no mākou ...